Hi again, nazanin, I'm sorry for taking so long to get back to you. It almost sounds like if your family found out that you're trying to learn to bellydance, they would be very upset with you. Is this true? Would you have to choose between your family, and bellydance? I hope that's not the case.
I'm not sure how I can help you, but there are some forum members here that would probably be better able to help you than I. Zorba and Tarik Sultan are professional male bellydancers. Their own bellydance journeys have not been easy, but they have earned the respect and admiration of the bellydance community. Perhaps if you send them a pm, they might be able to give you some good advice.
Please keep in touch, nazanin. Remember, as long as you have friends and loved ones, you are never alone.
I'm not sure how I can help you, but there are some forum members here that would probably be better able to help you than I. Zorba and Tarik Sultan are professional male bellydancers. Their own bellydance journeys have not been easy, but they have earned the respect and admiration of the bellydance community. Perhaps if you send them a pm, they might be able to give you some good advice.
Please keep in touch, nazanin. Remember, as long as you have friends and loved ones, you are never alone.