Belly Dance Forums - View Single Post

Brea · 01-04-2008, 05:55 PM

Yes let's start a buddy system and stuff. I think that would be great.

Thanks for the sympathy too. I don't get much of it, but I always feel like I owe it to myself to be a good person now after all I've lived through.

I don't understand methodical starvation. It works as a technique but it really sticks with you for life. Also it kills people. Why would anyone do that? Did your family? My enforced starvation was so terrible they ended up having to force feed me, as I weighed only 95 pounds at one point. They try not to actually kill you of course, but sometimes people die anyway. I am 5'9 and currently weigh (in the photos on my site) between 170-180 pounds. I am healthy at 150, and would be model-thin-looking at 135. So you can imagine what I looked like at 95 pounds when they decided to force feed me.

Yeah, so obviously I have some major issues with food. I wish someone (even myself) would be able to say into my ear 'it is OK you will have food when you need it, you don't need to stuff your face; you're not imprisoned anymore and you truly can buy and eat anything you want'. The funny thing is, I KNOW this cognitively, but my body thinks very much otherwise.

01-04-2008, 05:55 PM	#13 (permalink)
Brea V.I.P. Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: USA Posts: 1,283	Yes let's start a buddy system and stuff. I think that would be great. Thanks for the sympathy too. I don't get much of it, but I always feel like I owe it to myself to be a good person now after all I've lived through. I don't understand methodical starvation. It works as a technique but it really sticks with you for life. Also it kills people. Why would anyone do that? Did your family? My enforced starvation was so terrible they ended up having to force feed me, as I weighed only 95 pounds at one point. They try not to actually kill you of course, but sometimes people die anyway. I am 5'9 and currently weigh (in the photos on my site) between 170-180 pounds. I am healthy at 150, and would be model-thin-looking at 135. So you can imagine what I looked like at 95 pounds when they decided to force feed me. Yeah, so obviously I have some major issues with food. I wish someone (even myself) would be able to say into my ear 'it is OK you will have food when you need it, you don't need to stuff your face; you're not imprisoned anymore and you truly can buy and eat anything you want'. The funny thing is, I KNOW this cognitively, but my body thinks very much otherwise. __________________ www.breamorgiane.com Last edited by Brea; 01-04-2008 at 05:59 PM.