Hi brea, and rest of the world.
I have to say, you are a very transparent person, very opened, which will take you far, I really admire that, and it inspires me to share stuff that not only the mbrs of this forum can read, but the rest of the world too.
Growing up I was always an athletic slim little girl, then went rhough changes in my life that affected my eating habits, so more than twice I gained 20 to 30 pounds and lost them without dieting just out of pure exciment, which probably makes me an emotional eater...2 years ago I was in my best weight...119 pounds, I'm 5.4, I was making a living out of dance, but had to work many regular gigs at restaurants that just wore me down specially at one in which I danced outside, in front of the venue the floor was CEMENT which killed my knees, I also started having back problems...anyway... I started turning down the bad gigs, which left me with just the weddings and big events, I also stopped accepting belly dancing gigs because I did not want to upset my man, which was a good man but had a bad image about belly dance... It felt good to take a break, but what happenned was that I gained so much weight that NONE of my outfits fit any more, so I felt in a vicious circle and gained more weight...it was very depressing...a year and a half ago I started working at an office...seating all day which made me gained more ...every time I got a call for a gig I turned it down because I fell I was too fat and the outfits did not fit...but this year I decided I was going to fix my outfits and I DID! I waited for the new year working at the best gig of my life! (AND I HAVE NOT LOST WEIGHT YET)
I recomend that you practice pilates, or buy a book named kiseology for dancers and practice the excercises on the book ...if you want we could keep each other updated on the progress because I'm determined to traine hard every day even though I come back very tired from work too.